Little insecurities have been making their way through lately. I'm not even sure where they are coming from but it seems like bits here and there are coming off my outer suit of armor. Most of the time I have a pretty good self confidence level going. So I'm not sure why I am letting little things get to me.
I've been concerned with how people perceive me. What image am I putting out in the world? Is that a true reflection of who I am? I find myself concerned if so and so likes me or not. I find myself thinking about friendships of the past and wondering what I could or should have done differently. Right now I have more questions than answers.
The only positive spin I can put on it is that perhaps it's a system of checks and balances to help keep me grounded. Every now and then I stop and self reflect if only to help stop me from keeping my head in the clouds.
Judy, how many times I've felt myself feeling this very way. Know that your the person you were designed to be. Reputations and perceptions are important but only if the source is coming from a place of love and respect. We all want to be liked & needed and for many you are just that. I know for me you've become on of my greatest friends and looking back to where we started I'm not sure I would have seen us at this point but I couldn't be happier with our friendship, your amazing! As far as looking back and reevaluating, don't it's the past for a reason. I've heard it said before to not look back there is nothing you can do to change it, don't look to far into the future because you can't control it enjoy now before it becomes the past. I love you!
ReplyDeleteThank you Nicci for the advice and reassurance :) I too treasure our friendship. I'm very blessed to have such awesome people in my life, love you too!
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