We were in a store the other day. Clover looked up and saw a poster advertisement and pronounced "That's Mommy!" I started with a typical "I wish" but then I stopped myself. I stopped myself and then I realized that I stopped myself.
I've been told multiple times that I can't take a compliment. Here my lovely almost three year old was telling me that I was pretty enough to be on a poster and I showed my typical self-deprecation.
That is definitely not a side of myself that I want my daughter to see. I'm working on it. I've been working on accepting compliments. I joke about how I can't hear anything over the sound of how awesome I am. But, I really don't believe it.
It's all a work in progress. I am giving myself til Valentine's Day before I hop back on the wagon. And by wagon I mean back to my exercising and eating better regimen. I was on it and between the loss of the tooth/root canal/cold that kicked my butt, I just couldn't stay on. I fell off the wagon. But that's okay. After Valentine's Day I will start back up and work towards getting to where I want to be. I'm not sure where that is. I lost thirty pounds after having Clover. It took some work, but then I got there and then I got comfortable. So time to hop back and on and work on being healthier, a little happier, and a little less self deprecating.
So when I stopped myself, I told my little Clover...
"That's very sweet of you. Thank you baby"
I think it's amazing how something so little can change you so much.