I know that I very rarely put myself first. There are so many people and things higher up on my list. Every now and then I need a reminder that I need to take care of myself. I kept putting off going to the doctor thinking that I could treat myself and that I have been through this before so I will just roll with it.
I've dealt with acid reflux and ulcers before. I figured I would just go the over the counter route and I would be fine. I had went to urgent care twice over the Christmas break thinking that it was breathing problems. Turns out it was GERD. I kept putting off going to the doctor. Everyone out there has done it. "Oh I'll just go one more day...I'm not feeling that bad...I'll make an appointment tomorrow" type of thoughts where winning out. Except on Monday with I woke up and it felt like my stomach was eating my insides as a snack. I was convinced that something was going to hop out of my stomach like in that scene from SpaceBalls. I know its a parody of the Aliens one but I have never seen Aliens. SpaceBalls on the other hand I have on Dvd.
So back in I went. I'm completely frustrated because I was on track and eating well. Turns out that my body didn't agree with what I was eating. And when my stomach feels like it its turning inside out so it can eat itself I tend not to eat well. Because the only thing I want is bread. I think I had half a bagel three times yesterday.
While I was going through all of this a friend of mine ended up in the hospital. With heart problems. She has a family and a super busy life. She had been tired for awhile a long with some other symptoms. She went in thinking it was her gallbladder and ended up in the hospital. Luckily, she is back at home with her family now and resting.
It was a huge reminder to me that I need to take care of myself. I take care of the Hubs and Clover. Not to mention all of the house duties and chores. If I don't take care of myself then there is no me to take care of everyone else. So even though I tend to put others first, I need to learn how to put myself higher up on the list. I need to make myself a priority when I am not feeling well.
Do me a favor and take care of yourself too! Meanwhile I will ignore my stomach telling me that I want a carmel apple empanada. Insert the collective gasp from everyone who knows me because I just admitted that a small part of me wants Taco Bell.